today is 11th .

11th . five days more will actually be .. seems like its so hard for me to forget you . i guess you will always be in my mind for life . ( not a guy ) i miss you so much , we are just so close . every moment i felt your presence when you are with me . we are just so close . when i m upset i believe you are utterly downcast too . i know those days are kinda tough , but i was quite elated over it , its like you are so naughty . i often wonder . and i wonder you are a girl or a boy . i love you . n this kind of love is different which cant be compare to others. i m sorry , you make me gulity , you make me always think of it . i wonder if you are still with me , i wonder if you .. i guess you must have loathe me . i guess you must be a soul filled will hatred and with full of eager in revenging . forgive me as i m filled with gulit . lastly , i love you . farewell.

suffering .

i am having serious back ache right now. and my eyes, omg .. i cant face this world anymore . i m going to hide in my cupboard , forever inside and never face the light.
okay -
1st , i wanna get a bag , a good one. either LV or guggi. i realise all my bags suck. and that guess bag , i regret buying . byebye . i dont think i will use you often .
2nd , back to taekwondo soon . i miss those days with buddy . siao buddy.
3rd , tattoos . aha !
4th , slim down . and never be a pig again.
5th , meet jason the doll soon .
6th , clothes ! i want a topshop jeans.
7th , back aches and soreeyes byebye.
8th . pass my o's.
9th have a sweet boyfriend . and it will be you,
10th , hope matt is fine in camp. nice fren.

and lastly , to erase my painful past . you ... nothing can make me forget .. i m so sorryyy. ... you are gone ... we will never meet again .... i just cant accept you .... no fate .. i .. so ...sorryy....